So last month, I have been seeing someone. It’s been tentative. The first date was a bit ammunition like. You know, the usual round of questions that they always ask you. Where are you from? Where is home to you? What are your hobbies? Oh, so you went to XXX, cool, what was your dissertation on? The list goes on, but he is looking at his watch to make sure he clocks in all the questions he needs to know before he progresses me to the next date. All i am thinking is, is he going to give me a cordial hug or the kiss? The kiss that says, yes I want to see you again, but this time, you are going to meet my friends. The dating game continues… more like a flirtatious dance, where i have to carefully plan my weeks ahead of time. Because, you know, of course – rolling eyes – I am not just seeing one husband-to-be, as they say for women, there’s plenty of fish out there in the sea, i can say the same for men.
My schedule went something like this: Week 1 – Monday with Mr.F and Friday with Mr.A. Week 2- Friday with Mr.F and Week 3- Monday with Mr. A and Thursday with Mr. F. I can’t be too available and I can’t be too cold. I need to be just right for the picking. That’s the dating market.
I know what I am doing. Or at least i think i do.
Until my estacstic, or rather, narcissistic joy of juggling Mr.F, Mr. A, oh .. and even Mr.G came to a sudden change. I wasn’t getting their phone calls, or emails… let alone texts anymore. Did they find someone else? Are they not turned on by me anymore, but why? BUT WHY? The receiving end of “ no response” or more accurately, “ he’s just not into you” can unleash the most toxic alter ego of a person.
I can definitely relate to that.
Because I am sitting here, with more than two weeks having passed of these dating indiscretions of Mr.F, Mr. A, and Mr.G whining at intolerable lengths to anyone that is willing to hear me out. And i mean anyone. From the innocent taxi driver, to the wet market lady, and of course, to my ever so loyal friends that pretend to put up with me.
This is it.
PART II : RESURRECTION…. ( to be continued)…